I have always known I was spoiled but I never considered myself a brat. Until this morning. I have been very bitter this last week over my job and not remembering to stay thankful. I was even in tears last night because I just didn't want to do it anymore. Not that I couldn't, but it just didn't seem worth it. I even told my husband I wanted to be mediocre. I slept on the couch last night so that I could get up early and get into the office. However, I overslept anyway and didn't get out the door until 5:30. Of course this made me even more bitter/fussy. I also had to stop and get gas which I hate doing. If you know me, you know at the point I reach the gas station I am insanely fussy. The man working at the gas station in my opinion looked a bit shady, so I was nervous and I didn't give the smile or greeting another human deserves. In fact, I was even holding on to my mace ready for a fight. When I got to the register the man saw my badge around my neck and he smiled and said "Wow you work there? That is a good company. What a great job!"
Ouch. Point taken God. I drove a car that I didn't pay for, to get gas I don't pay for, wearing new clothes that again, I didn't pay for and were even delivered straight to my door, so that I can go to a job that more than covers health insurance and our expenses, I get to work from home at night or when my munchkin is sick and I am the bitter one. This man who has been working all night at a gas station away from his family is all smiles and showing the love I should be to others.
God can and will use anyone. I am going to stop being so bitter and remember to be thankful for everything.
